W. Adriano's Blog

Unforgiven

2010-12-20T01:11:00.000-08:00

Human have learnt to store pain in their internal memory. It is a basic primal feature built in our hardwares as means of survival. We witness this even in less intellectual creatures.

In the primal days, these include: what type of animals bit us, which plants were to avoid, which routes were dangerous to take, the pain of losing something/someone, and many other important information, crucial to our existence. The learning process may be experienced by oneself, or by witnessing others experiencing the pain.

We may say ‘we forgive’ by a given definition, and not act/say/discuss on what has ensued in contexts and settings where it was non-crucial to their existence [e.g. in times of peace]. In truth, the memory has been stored by means of pain deep in their hard drives, waiting in disposal in their arsenal to be recalled as defense mechanisms as well as offensive weaponries.

In times of crisis, actual or perceived, often involving emotional triggers, the brain accesses these information like a thunderbolt, applying what we have learnt into effect. In the hunting days, this may took form in our fight or flight reactions when seeing danger approaching.

In modern days, the manifestations range from subtle, daily decision-making, quarrels between relatives, spousal disputes, to violent encounters, genocides and even massacres. One need not say ‘you did this x years ago…’ or ‘your in-laws did…’ The learnt information manifests itself in other matters undoubtedly, without fail.

The very notion of forgiving is so unhuman, non-intuitive and against the very core of our primal instinct, that we have attributed an all-forgiving character to the ever-popular notion of ‘God’. If you’ve adopted a religion, your version of God or its representatives would probably forgive you for any or all of your wrong doings, by means of simple person-to-God confession, to elaborate rituals that may involve sacrificial acts of some sort.

‘Forgive and forget’ – The phrase has been glorified by modern societies. Advanced civilizations demand us to behave according to artificial ever-changing standards, masking our pain and emotions in grandeurs of daily masquerades, priding ourselves behind the ‘evolved’, ‘cultured’ masks.

In truth, human doesn’t really forgive. Societies don’t forgive.

You may believe your version of God forgives you, but in the brains of your fellow human beings, YOU are never truly ‘forgiven’.

Therefore, in truth, be perfect.

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may *not be forgiven” [James 5:16 *jazzed up]

Unforgiven,

W. Adriano

Playing God

2009-03-31T01:04:00.000-07:00

I'd bake breads capable of being charred [burnt], and I nOe most if not all of them, will be...

To those who feel bad about their ugly burnt nature and ask for my forgiveness, I shall be graceful and forgive them.

I will continuously remind them that they do not deserve it and will forever be "charred" despite their best effort, but that I am kind and forgiving. I'd promise to have them remade better once they rot to ash. Only if they behave to my standard of liking.

To the other breads who have come to accept their ugly nature and live their most according to it, I shall condemn them to eternal torture, denying them a place in my father's house.

I wont have to demand the "good" burnt breads to praise and worship me the creator, i will jus have the idea built in the recipe, so they would feel like they want to. A dash of "unworthiness" and "helplessness", it should do the job.

My breads can do everything they want to, as long as it is what I want them to do. Anything otherwise and me the creator won't be happy. To punish them is my right, I'm bigger than all of them anyway.

Ow, I might also put a hint of "thankfulness", for having them created the way they are..charred, burnt, unworthy, and for having me, the all knowing, all powerful, all forgiving, ultimate creator, generous God =D

Humbly,
W. Adriano

Koln / Cologne - carnival!!!

2009-03-10T16:00:00.000-07:00

was there for the carnival weekends...was crazy...drunks n broken bottles on the street like u wudnt blieve... must have seen about a million people or more dat day...or more! not makin this up... happy =D

263 km/hr!!! dats my personal land record hehe

I arrived at about 10.30 am in da morning n these people have started drinking before dat...these ones are tipsy!!!

The dome was so awesome it was like no other...i was actually lucky to attend da sunday service der cuz otherwise it was closed for da carnival weekend.. [no i did not attend da service fOr da service..]

haha i swear i dint edit dat finger...

KAISER WILHELM his name was..... muhuahahhaha

This was why da church was closed for visitors..obviously they dint want these people to get into the famous dome in these outfits...look down for more..

There were lotsa independent bands participating in the 2 day carnival weekends..this one in purple was awesome..they woud walk n play anywhere...in da mid of da street, in da train station...they were all awesome...when they plyd at da station u cud hear it a mile away cuz of de echo...really awesome experience of positive mass hysteria in mids of these bands..

toilet at the station during carnival..colorful lol

the toilet was de most hi-tech ive ever seen..lcd display above every urinal, and da transparent door turns milky [like in da pic] when locked......cool....

toilet after being "drunked"

The ones in green were actual cops, the pair in black, actually tested people how drunk dey were..n people pay them!!! wahaha..smart id say...

no comment..

wohhooo decent hotel in koln....

there were hundreds of these along da bridge..will start da trend in indo..hehe

night shots....

I must have seen at least a hundred drunken elvis, priests, nuns, and jedis dat weekend.. woohoo...

holiday thoughts

2009-03-01T14:02:00.002-08:00

Had a full-on weekend..frankfurt on friday, heidelberg saturday, and rudesheim today. de main destintation was de oldest castle (stone) in germany..dating back to where da first king of all germany was appointed. i took da guided tour and am glad i did.. today in rudesheim i visited a lot of places, one of which was the medieval torture museum.

The castle has endured a lot since it was built..wars, expansion, conversion, different occupiers [even da english was there at one point] and so on. The torture museum exhibits different tools used during the medieval time, who did it, to who, why, and so on..

In this article i am talking mainly about the following religions [in no particular order] Catholic, Protestants, Islam, Judaism, and the concept of religion in general.

So at these 2 occasions, i was reminded again how the concept of "religion" been working throughout the different eras of mankind..altho these 2 days have been mainly on the medieval, gothic - renaissance, but as u noe, the same picture of "religious" conflicts have been around since da beginning of time to this day.. destruction of civilisation, forced conversion of society and churches, "repentance" by torture, torture and burning of women accused of witchery, or to anyone questioning the state's religious doctrine. For women, they dint even hav any say in any religious institution back than. In fact, some religious institutions todAy still do not allow women to be in higher positions [Yes modern christians on ur horses, im talking about u too...]

everyone of u will hav a say on this..and yes i do noe dat diff institutions from the same religion have different policies on any matter..which ironically..only convinces me how inapplicable the concept is in building a more harmonious society..

i realy..and i mean realy...dun want to identify myself as one of these people..i was one for a long time..in da ministry and all.. but the more mature and learned i am [i do not claim to noe everything about all religion..neither am i da wisest amongst all of u], the more i think religion, any, is not contributing to world peace.. granted, men will still kill others over many things if not religions, it has however, contributed to the cause for way too long..

[yes2 religions dont kill people, people kill people, its nvr da religion, its da people..yah da yah da yahda.. open ur eyes!!! it has been a great cause to slaughter fellow mankind throughout da ages!!!]

i wana post some pictures up..jus so u noe wad im talkin about..mayb on later days..am passing out soon after miles of hiking..i think im rambling..

temperature, a gift , and hapkido

2009-02-18T10:01:00.000-08:00

i woke up late this mornin..shud hav left for the academy when i was still pooing n my fren knockd on da door.. so i rushd out of my room after shower, grabd a quick sandwich to go..n off we went.. der was only snow leftovers...some water puddle lookd pretty solid tho... found out it was -10 degree [yep mInus 10] when i arrived at de academy..shud hav savourd it more..was my first time xperiencing such low temperature..

anyhow..had a pretty funny day..wudnt cal it gud...rather weird..funny.. lotsa bumps working with da machines..got it through after a long while.. i guess we learn by mistakes.. managd to make somtin for my s.o. tho.. she better treasure it..i almost wrecked a machine makin it..4 times or more on different mistakes haha..

ow btw...i went to a hapkido dojang yesterday in seligenstadt...about 15 mins by bus from my bus stop [which is about 10 mins walk from da hotel]. It was called the '"Shinson Hapkido" the dojang was awesome...it was new, smelled new, spacious, had a large bistro in front of da hall, and the Sabeumnim Yoseph [the head instructor/owner] lives on the second floor of the building..da whole building was modern but da hall had traditional oriental feel to it still.. very inspiring.. wud definitely keep this place in mind when i build my future dojang hehe..

the training was coreographd differently to anything ive done before..other than da korean countings and kicking commands [less than 10%] all others were in german..cudnt understand a thing..so i jus followed wad de others are doing haha..i think it workd alrite.. the people were friendly too..some of them who dont speak english still have friendly faces..and get this, after training and shower, they hung out at the bistro, in the dojang outside da hall to have a light meal..someone must hav bought da cheese, ham, sausage and beers to just talk and chill out!!! this shockd me..first time in my life ive seen this..definitely want a bistro in front of my training hall in my future dojang haha.. was uneasy for me..dat being my first visit and all..to join in da gathering..but i was made to feel welcomed..

so dat settles it. dats where ill be training twice a week for another month..hopefully more.. i might jus train there everytime im here in germany..seems like ill be visiting germany for another few times..wud buy their dobok for keepsake and souvenir if its not dat expensive...it was either 60 or 90 euro =[

Frankfurt

2009-02-17T08:27:00.001-08:00

Frankfurt was a nice breath of modern civilisation after da week..im talking all da shabangs like mals, KFC, McD, Burger king, Zara..well i dint hav to take a pic of those.. so here goes.. [darn laptop lost half my pics when i cut n pasted..guys "copy" nxt time jus to be safe]

Yep..there he was a humble Jedi jus walkin pass..jus had to take a pic, de other was just as cool...

and then there were the nightshots..which i was bummed about cuz i cudnt set my timer...

no i am not a religious one..in case u wonder..but great statues..

this is like THE part of frankfurt..

The first parliament building The youngest was probably mid 30s..shocking..

This cafe was right in da mids of frankfurt..probably the most expensive rent in town.. Great chai latte too!!! i wishd my s.o. and my other coffee mates were here =[

No mom, ci astrid, guys, and my s.o, i did nOt go back there later dat nite.... *to my guy frens: i noe!? right?!!

yep..evangelists....dey're everywhere...da pony was not....

This restaurant/bar i went to, have been around since 1479..it looked great inside....ns beer..food was okay..

yep..naruto lives here too..wif da duck n all..

Seligenstadt

2009-02-14T23:21:00.000-08:00

So i went to Seligenstadt..not too far from obertshausen... a few pics i took before my camera died on me.. =] dat garden in front of the church jsut blew me away..

more photos

2009-02-09T21:01:00.001-08:00

my morning walk

yep 0 degree

it snowed!!!! [classroom view]

more photos

2009-02-09T20:46:00.001-08:00

My toilet..it's clean..bright, w wireless broadband.. im happy lol..

rambo and fashion

2009-02-08T18:08:00.000-08:00

3 am..jet lag..jus woke up can't sleep.... i found these:

[http://www.cracked.com/article_17019_5-real-life-soldiers-who-make-rambo-look-like-pussy.html]

and for my s.o =>

[http://www.cracked.com/article_16997_6-popular-fashion-trends-that-killed-people.html]

afterall, u gave me "beauty and misogyny" lol....

photos

2009-02-08T05:08:00.000-08:00

will post more pics later...this place is even more beautiful than i thot it wud be..

...window view...1 pm btw..doesnt get brighter than dat

...yep dats my bed..

...first impression...

first day in obertshausen, germany

2009-02-07T17:18:00.001-08:00

Well..second, actually..i just woke up from a 12 hour 'nap'..after 14 hours of travel from jakarta..not including bandung-jakarta car travel.. Pretty hungry, thankfully i bought some food on my arrival at a nearby shopping centre [i was told everything here close on sundays, so i had to get my supplies].

This 'hotel' is more like a college dorm..the ones i wanted to move in in melbourne jus for the experience [altho i did live in an apartment]. so yeah its all good with the minimalistic bed and toilet [will upload picture later] and the all-important heater.. afterall its 3 degree max outside..will be 1 degree max tommorow..too bad no more snow..

So yeah..so far obertshausen is a small town with lotsa senior citizens with some english-understanding-non-speaking people who seem to have poker face.. oh yeah..apart from my first 'taxi' driver 'Ali', a genuinely friendly muslim on a 3 degree Frankfurt morning..

I hope ill find a dojang to train in while im here for 5 weeks..or maybe a dojo [not karate], or a boxing/kickboxing gym, or maybe ill get desperate ill take anything i find..

2.30 am now n i had 12 hour 'nap'..hopefully ill get sleepy again soon after some browsing..dun wana be too jetlaggd during da day later...

obama's step sister?

2009-01-22T19:58:00.000-08:00

there was an article on a supposed step sister of obama, who supposedly took care of him when he was in jakarta.. She did say she's happy for him and "mungkin dia (Obama) malu punya saudara miskin seperti saya," [translate: hes's probably ashamed of having a poor sister like me].

I do try to be positive...hmm let's c.. fake eggs.. fake fuel..fake media..fake laws..fake enforcers..fake country.. positive ay?

i also heard about the celebration held by the school in jakarta post-inauguration..

clearing this out--I do like Obama..at least for the time being..we'll c what he does next..and geez im so ashamed of the indonesian media..kompas being the least shitty...

Yaay...my new blog =D

2009-01-15T17:55:00.000-08:00

Finally..will restart my blog on this one... =] WORLD PEACE!!!