Unforgiven

Human have learnt to store pain in their internal memory. It is a basic primal feature built in our hardwares as means of survival. We witness this even in less intellectual creatures.

In the primal days, these include: what type of animals bit us, which plants were to avoid, which routes were dangerous to take, the pain of losing something/someone, and many other important information, crucial to our existence. The learning process may be experienced by oneself, or by witnessing others experiencing the pain.

We may say ‘we forgive’ by a given definition, and not act/say/discuss on what has ensued in contexts and settings where it was non-crucial to their existence [e.g. in times of peace]. In truth, the memory has been stored by means of pain deep in their hard drives, waiting in disposal in their arsenal to be recalled as defense mechanisms as well as offensive weaponries.

In times of crisis, actual or perceived, often involving emotional triggers, the brain accesses these information like a thunderbolt, applying what we have learnt into effect. In the hunting days, this may took form in our fight or flight reactions when seeing danger approaching.

In modern days, the manifestations range from subtle, daily decision-making, quarrels between relatives, spousal disputes, to violent encounters, genocides and even massacres. One need not say ‘you did this x years ago…’ or ‘your in-laws did…’ The learnt information manifests itself in other matters undoubtedly, without fail.

The very notion of forgiving is so unhuman, non-intuitive and against the very core of our primal instinct, that we have attributed an all-forgiving character to the ever-popular notion of ‘God’. If you’ve adopted a religion, your version of God or its representatives would probably forgive you for any or all of your wrong doings, by means of simple person-to-God confession, to elaborate rituals that may involve sacrificial acts of some sort.

‘Forgive and forget’ – The phrase has been glorified by modern societies. Advanced civilizations demand us to behave according to artificial ever-changing standards, masking our pain and emotions in grandeurs of daily masquerades, priding ourselves behind the ‘evolved’, ‘cultured’ masks.

In truth, human doesn’t really forgive. Societies don’t forgive.

You may believe your version of God forgives you, but in the brains of your fellow human beings, YOU are never truly ‘forgiven’.

Therefore, in truth, be perfect.

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may *not be forgiven” [James 5:16 *jazzed up]

Unforgiven,

W. Adriano

Playing God

I'd bake breads capable of being charred [burnt], and I nOe most if not all of them, will be...

To those who feel bad about their ugly burnt nature and ask for my forgiveness, I shall be graceful and forgive them.

I will continuously remind them that they do not deserve it and will forever be "charred" despite their best effort, but that I am kind and forgiving. I'd promise to have them remade better once they rot to ash. Only if they behave to my standard of liking.

To the other breads who have come to accept their ugly nature and live their most according to it, I shall condemn them to eternal torture, denying them a place in my father's house.

I wont have to demand the "good" burnt breads to praise and worship me the creator, i will jus have the idea built in the recipe, so they would feel like they want to. A dash of "unworthiness" and "helplessness", it should do the job.

My breads can do everything they want to, as long as it is what I want them to do. Anything otherwise and me the creator won't be happy. To punish them is my right, I'm bigger than all of them anyway.

Ow, I might also put a hint of "thankfulness", for having them created the way they are..charred, burnt, unworthy, and for having me, the all knowing, all powerful, all forgiving, ultimate creator, generous God =D


Humbly,
W. Adriano

temperature, a gift , and hapkido

i woke up late this mornin..shud hav left for the academy when i was still pooing n my fren knockd on da door.. so i rushd out of my room after shower, grabd a quick sandwich to go..n off we went.. der was only snow leftovers...some water puddle lookd pretty solid tho... found out it was -10 degree [yep mInus 10] when i arrived at de academy..shud hav savourd it more..was my first time xperiencing such low temperature..

anyhow..had a pretty funny day..wudnt cal it gud...rather weird..funny.. lotsa bumps working with da machines..got it through after a long while.. i guess we learn by mistakes.. managd to make somtin for my s.o. tho.. she better treasure it..i almost wrecked a machine makin it..4 times or more on different mistakes haha..

ow btw...i went to a hapkido dojang yesterday in seligenstadt...about 15 mins by bus from my bus stop [which is about 10 mins walk from da hotel]. It was called the '"Shinson Hapkido" the dojang was awesome...it was new, smelled new, spacious, had a large bistro in front of da hall, and the Sabeumnim Yoseph [the head instructor/owner] lives on the second floor of the building..da whole building was modern but da hall had traditional oriental feel to it still.. very inspiring.. wud definitely keep this place in mind when i build my future dojang hehe..

the training was coreographd differently to anything ive done before..other than da korean countings and kicking commands [less than 10%] all others were in german..cudnt understand a thing..so i jus followed wad de others are doing haha..i think it workd alrite.. the people were friendly too..some of them who dont speak english still have friendly faces..and get this, after training and shower, they hung out at the bistro, in the dojang outside da hall to have a light meal..someone must hav bought da cheese, ham, sausage and beers to just talk and chill out!!! this shockd me..first time in my life ive seen this..definitely want a bistro in front of my training hall in my future dojang haha.. was uneasy for me..dat being my first visit and all..to join in da gathering..but i was made to feel welcomed..

so dat settles it. dats where ill be training twice a week for another month..hopefully more.. i might jus train there everytime im here in germany..seems like ill be visiting germany for another few times..wud buy their dobok for keepsake and souvenir if its not dat expensive...it was either 60 or 90 euro =[

rambo and fashion

3 am..jet lag..jus woke up can't sleep.... i found these:

[http://www.cracked.com/article_17019_5-real-life-soldiers-who-make-rambo-look-like-pussy.html]

and for my s.o =>

[http://www.cracked.com/article_16997_6-popular-fashion-trends-that-killed-people.html]

afterall, u gave me "beauty and misogyny" lol....

Yaay...my new blog =D

Finally..will restart my blog on this one... =] WORLD PEACE!!!